My thoughts.

I don't know if this will be a good thing or a bad thing.  I have a good online friend Jason Pence McBroom who has been an inspiration to me in the last few years.  He used to be on Youtube but has closed his channel.  He was very candid about his life.  Until 2013 he spent the last six years taking care of his ailing grandmother who he would showcase in his videos.  He suffers from agoraphobia and panic attics.  He can't be in large crowds.  He helped me see that there is nothing wrong with me.

I have another online friends who is on Youtube and Facebook.  His name is Tyson McCormick.  His channel on Youtube is The Life of Tye.  He and his husband Will live in South Carolina with their 3 dogs Zero, Rebel, and Gungi.  They are very open about who they are and what their lives are like.  They enjoy playing with their dogs and rescuing animals if the need arises.  They enjoy playing slap wars far too much than I would.  Tye has made a few shout outs to me on Youtube.  They have helped me to discover than I am more than my sexuality.

My main inspirations have also been on Youtube.  Will Shepard and RJ Aguiar aka Shep689.  They are a very loving couple who were living in Florida until 2013 when they moved to Los Angeles.  They are daily vloggers.  They have one German shepherd Dobby who as Epilepsy.   Will also has a gaming channel and RJ has a personal channel.  I started watching Will's videos several years ago when he was doing them by himself.  They have been together 6 years and have been a help to a lot of people dealing with a variety of life situations.   I have also had a few shoutouts to me on their channel.  They have been instrumental in helping me be a better person.

I have a lot of Christian friends who are telling me that I am doing wrong.  But what they don't know is I have put my trust in God on this.  Everyone has to find God personally in their own way.  I have a personal relationship with my Savior and Lord.  Some may say that I have to follow the Bible but I believe you have to go with whats in your heart.  God gave us a brain to learn and know things.  I know within the core of my being that I am doing what is right for me.  Some may disagree with me so we will have to agree to disagree.  I just have to remember that my immediate family is there for me if I need them.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Darrell Russell